I was hustling.

I knew that I’m not focusing right on my studies. I was wasting time. Degrading myself in front of everyone else. But most importantly, I was losing myself to this inner turmoil caused by my own self. Calling out to random people for help. I was not even fulfilling my day to day goals. What am I supposed to be doing with my life? I was turning out to be a joke for other people to laugh at. I feel like a masked person. Hiding behind this mask throwing out constant random jokes just for the sake of entertaining people.

The sad thing is they’re not even that funny anymore.

I was seized by this constant fear of rejection. I need to overcome this fear of rejection.